I go through these phases where I either love reading, hate reading, or just have no time for it. No matter my feelings, each year for the pst few years I have managed to read 50 books give or take a few depending on the year and I’m pretty proud of myself for that.
More recently, well at least this month, I really love reading, like really love it even though I have’t really read anything I found to be good aside from re-reading American Psycho, I just have a hunger for it. I think it is because I watched John and Hank Green perform at Carnegie Hall for their Evening of Awesome and it really inspired me.
One point, Neil Gaiman and John Green were on stage and gave advice for aspiring novelists and Neil Gaiman said, and I’m paraphrasing but he said, “Read everything, write, and finish things.” So I’m going to do that.
I hate to be that person. Living as a twenty-something in Los Angeles, I know so many people that are “writing” books and scripts. It is almost the “in” thing to do for people here. But I kind of am that person, except without the quotation marks. When I said I am writing something I mean it, usually I work on a bunch of little things but never tell people what I’m doing until I am fully confident that I will complete it. I’m the type of person that doesn’t say something unless I mean it because I get shit done. I’ve written a novel for NaNoWriMo a year ago, I’m sure I can do it again.
I’ve just been the type of person that jumps. Once I want to do something I will fucking do it. I pride myself on that. The problem lies in the jumping. Sometimes it will take me a while to do it and get in that mind set — like taking a year and a half to move here after college — or sometimes I just don’t think and do it — like booking a trip to go to Spain by myself 2 months before the trip. And, unfortunately, there are sometimes where I never fully get in that mindset and an idea just becomes a thing of the past and fades away. I hope this won’t.
I want to write. I want to write a book by the end of this year or at least begin one by then. I’m hoping that reading a variety of books from YA to classics to dystopians to plays to bios…something will just click. All I need is an idea and that’ll be the igniting of the spark. Everything starts out with just an idea, but the idea is always the hardest part.
Let’s just hope this isn’t a phase.